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One Week Down And I’m Hooked

My friends,

I have officially finished my first week in placement and I knew I would look forward to my clinical placement for a reason…

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But before I get into all that…

Before my placement began this past Tuesday, I dragged my bf to the KW Pet Expo in Kitchener and got to pet all the doggies and even see a kangaroo!

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Hi Buddy!

Now I’m always stuck between not liking the fact that this guy is in a cage and enjoying the ability to see them up close and personal but I kind of always feel selfish for not being 100% opposed to the whole thing. I have this same moral dilemma with the zoo. They don’t deserve to be in that little cage, but I have to be honest when I say I was super happy to see this guy.

#MyGuiltyConscienceIsBuilding

What I can say is that I do not agree with this..

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No. I don’t care if the dye is not harmful to the dog, you don’t do that. They are not a play toy. They are a living creature and I’m sure that is not something a dog would really want.

Do you believe in changing the colour of a dogs hair? 

Anyways, so onto placement..

What a busy week BUT I literally enjoyed every second of it, well maybe except for the need to fill up Dori more than I would have liked because the gas companies are trying to kill us all.

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Like actually though…My thumb will be sticking out the next time I have to fill up.

#PrayersForCanadianDrivers

Let break down my days into nice easy bullets of fun

Tuesday

  • Did my first chart note. Apparently I’m a fast charter, which is good because all you hear is dietitians talking about how they are always getting behind on their charting
  • Got to sit in with my first client and my supervisor called me the “expert.” She was an IBS client and I swear she turned to me half of the times. Makes me feel all good about myself.
  • Amy (my supervisor) challenged me on a number of questions related to Diabetes so I got to do lots of research and learn a few things
    • Did you know that smoking with diabetes increases your risk of having to have a limb amputated? Due to already having vascular and circulatory issues, the ‘diabetic foot’ is already prominent. Add smoking to that equation and you create a hypoxic (little to no oxygen) environment that doesn’t allow for healing.
  • Got my calendar for all of the things we will be doing. So many things to attend and learn from
  • Was able to listen to a client phone call
  • Got my research project
    • The various recent diets and how they impact type 1 diabetes

Wednesday

  • Keto presentation at another FHT!! Blog post to come but OMG this was such a good lecture. Was mostly about it’s applicability in the paediatric epilepsy population but she (the presenter, expert on the topic) discussed all of the risks and cautioned about it’s use in various other clinical applications and advised against the use of a traditional keto diet for weight loss purposes. Gets my mind going.

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  • More charting…
  • Helped run the Craving Change class that ran from 5:30-7:30. This is a class for people who struggle with their eating and trying to use a form of CBT-like therapy to understand their thought and emotion patterns and how that relates to their eating. This week we discussed WHY we eat, whether these are stomach, mouth or mind reasons and discovered that most of the time, we are eating for something emotional.
    • I also had to be prepared to brief a client on the previous class (which I didn’t attend either as I wasn’t there yet) because she missed it before that class began.

Thursday (Busiest day!)

  • 9am Diabetes Network committee meeting at a hospital. I was a bit lost as I have no idea what the committee was talking about and what they were currently working on, but hey, I got to listen to their challenges and brainstorming
  • 11:30 Lunch-and-learn about new insulin pump technology. This was basically half me stuffing a pin cushion with various pumps…

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…and half telling them the event of my jaw injury because I wasn’t eating their lunch… #StillOnBabyFood

  • 3-5 was the Intro To Diabetes group, which was educating individuals who were newly diagnosed (although some didn’t know of their diagnosis…yikes!) on the basics of diabetes and nutrition related to the condition.
    • I learned that many people don’t know that eggs DONT belong in the dairy family
  • 6:30-7:30 I helped run the Healthy You class, which focused on teaching about healthier eating patterns, whether that relates to understanding portion sizes, making substations and helping with healthy and sustainable weight loss if that was a goal.
    • I’m supposed to teach the class by myself next week…0_0
  • Before that I got pulled into another client education session with the FHT Diabetes Educator. This was cool because I got to hear another professional’s counselling style and how she dealt with a client who was originally against making changes.
  • Finally I was asked to run MY OWN lunch-and-learn on sports nutrition for a table full of dietitians from surrounding FHT’s so they can be educated on what to do with their clients. I was so honoured (hello it’s my third day) but slightly terrified at the same time. I know I can do it but my mind is swirling with how to present this thing…and it’s my third day!

Friday

  • This is my research day. I can work from home but it’s doing my research project.

Overall, it was a great start to this placement. I enjoyed every moment of it and my supervisor, Amy, is amazing. I feel like she really believes and has a lot of confidence in me and my abilities and that’s really amazing to feel, especially so early on.

I have found my happy place guys. I’m a born counsellor and this is where I need to be.

Was there a time that something you were doing just ‘clicked,’ like you knew that this is really what you wanted to do? Yup, that was me this week.

Have a great Mothers Day weekend my friends, I took my Mom to the Butterfly conservatory today and it was tons of fun. Hope you have something fun planned with your loved ones!

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Where the Sun Don’t Shine…

Hello again my friends. As promised I said I would come back and share my updated GI health story with you all…

Screen Shot 2018-04-04 at 1.54.04 PMIf you followed way back, you know for the longest time I had been dealing with GI issues. It wasn’t until a random conversation at the gym, that the idea of a parasite was brought up and I asked to be tested.

I came back positive…very positive

Blasto was his..their..name. And making my tummy miserable was their game.

I was treated. Twice.

Medical interventions for them buggers, well they suck.

As I had told you all afterwards, basically the treatment for parasites is a full on ‘death by meds’ to your gut flora. It doesn’t matter if they are useful or not, they will all be killed off. That was not pleasant, as they are integral for digestion and so I was left being unable to tolerate a lot of foods because I just couldn’t break them down like a normal person.

No veggies. No high fibre foods. No red meat. Careful with too much fat in one sitting…it goes on. And the award for the most “unhealthy” dietitian goes to…

The biggest sadness that came from that was the loss of some of my favourite foods…

My beloved oats were kicked to the curb after my stomach spazzed so hard that I almost passed out.

I still needed carbs. I’m an athlete and I’m also a notorious carb-burner. Everything became rice.

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Cream of rice replaced my precious oats.

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yesss to peanut butter not leaving my life…and yes I save that blob for last. Judge me.

I went through 5-6 bags of Lunderberg brown rice cakes a week because I used them as “easy on the tummy” carbs.

I learned to accept it and was content.

…Minus the lack of being able to go out. But hey, life sucks sometimes so I had to move on. 

I was under the impression that now my gut just had to heal, but I was very wrong.

Fast forward two years, I’m entering my Master’s program and probably the most school pressure and stress I will ever face, and here I was the sickest I have been since my eating disorder.

I knew there was something wrong. I have known the entire time but it was frustrating because the medical system would just yell at me for being underweight and say either…

~”gaining weight is hard, it may be uncomfortable.”

~You know we don’t normally treat parasites…” <- Really something is stealing my nutrients from my body and you don’t think thats an issue?

~”Maybe this is just “Chelsea”..Maybe this is just the way you are”

~Oh and just for shits and giggles…. “you’re so small. You have no blood” <- Bravo GI doc… 

Here I was trying my best to just eat my maintenance and I felt like every medical professional was against me. I told them I was bloated 24/7, felt full randomly all the time and just didn’t feel normal anymore and they didn’t listen.

“It’s just the past ED…”

It wasn’t until a few months ago where things got really bad.

Dumping syndrome (I will spare you the lovely details, go look it up if you would like to know..) began happening multiple times a week..

My iron levels and overall blood levels were falling through the floor

My electrolytes all fell

My last blood pressure check was 90/55 (today)

My kidney and liver function were compromised

And I just looked grey all the time. I still do because it hasn’t stopped yet. 

I had pretty much given up at this point but the doctors finally looked concerned and I began seeing them more than my friends, or it felt like it, but they did nothing except tell me I was a concern. As a last resort I sent out a message to my friend, Andrew, an NP and he ordered me the GI map test (basic sense, its a map of your entire gut biome, good and bad, plus other markers of gut health and stress).

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If you’re interested in the GI map, its $$$ but I wish everyone could get it, heres the link.

On top of some other critters, Blasto made his appearance once again along with a lovely sheet full of red markers stating I had SIBO (bacterial overgrowth), leaky gut (high zonulin levels), parastic pathogens AND the calprotectin signals that I should be checked for Inflammatory Bowel Disorder (IBD) and/or infection.

So I have the problem diagnosed right?!? They will believe me know right?!?

Wrong. Well at least from the MD side. My family doc didn’t even know how to read the fricken report.

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ND had a much more active approach. Andrew listened and gave me his parasite purging/ gut healing protocol.

I take a lot of supplements (especially right now, low absorption..) but I have never taken so many pills in my life.

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It is a liver support + parasite purge + gut healing protocol and I would be at it for about 6-8 months. So that was where I sat. MD continued to be useless until they scheduled me into a new Gastro doctor in Burlington.

So to a new GI I went, that was this past Saturday. Much nicer doctor and more open. He doesn’t think the parasite is my biggest concern but has put me in for a gastric emptying test and a colonoscopy for two weeks.

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*** Any friends reading this who sees me in two weeks..please do not be alarmed. Colonoscopies make me look like death after… ***

So, after a pretty emotionally draining weekend (thank god for my bf..honestly), I now get to wait. Wait for that horrible test and continue to feel the same way for two weeks.

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I’m frustrated that my emotions have been up and down, so I tell myself this on the daily

I’m not trying to sound whiny and complain but I have to admit that I’m a bit scared to say the least. I know I have to know but the test itself and the results scare me. Most say that they don’t think I have Crohns but the possibility is there.

Pun intended, that scares the shit out of me.

But we wait and until then, I will continue to keep doing me and staying busy because you know what? I need to do what I need to do. It will be good so I need to just move past it.

This is my journey of gut healing and I want to share this not for sympathy..

PLEASE PLEASE don’t think I’m sharing this to get an “I’m sorry you have to go through this.” Other people have things way worse to go through. I’m doing this, being vulnerable, because more people than ever have been having stomach issues and I hope this can reach them and if they have questions they can ask me or it can give them some idea on what things to ask their medical team. 

My goal is always to educate and relate. If I can help one person stand up for themselves and seek help and GET some relief, this post has served its purpose.

I will keep you updated my friends. Thank you for always having my back.

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It’s Coming…Currently

School is starting in a few weeks.

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It’s really not that bad, you see I know that we all go through the period of being so happy that school is over due to exam stress but two weeks in we are officially bored.

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Then once school starts, you are all excited to see all your friends again and then one week in you’re waiting for Christmas Break again.

#FirstWorldProblems

In light of this, I thought it would be a good time to give an update on life in one of these currently posts. So, I hope you enjoy and please, comment below and let me know what’s going on with you! I miss chattering more with you guys as my comment section has been quite silent over the summmaa months. I totally get that it’s summer and you all are crazy busy with jobs and just trying to still have a life, but I miss you my friends. ❤

Anyways, onto the update.

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Totally snagged this from Amanda cuz it’s cute. Hope you don’t mind 😉 

Current book Youtube watch: Cuz you all know I don’t read…I have recently been following Mr. Nick Tong Strong more closely for his knowledge and expertise in bodybuilding and nutrition. He’s the prep coach of two ladies I follow on YouTube, Emily Duncan and Taylor Chamberlain, and I have just been spending some time getting caught up on his talks. Interesting stuff.

Current music: A few goodies off of the new album for Suicide Squad. Haven’t seen the movie itself, but I really liked some of the music!

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~Purple Lamborghini -Skrillex and Rick Ross

~Sucker For Pain-  Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons w/ Logic & Ty Dolla $ign ft X Ambassadors

~Heathens – Twenty One Pilots

Love these 3 for the gym.

Current [non]-guilty pleasure: Foam Rolling! I have been rolling every morning without fail and I found out the hard way that my legs and hips are not the only things that need some more roller love…

Despite being painful sometimes, it’s actually relaxing and its something I’m trying to do for my body to perform at it’s best. I’m falling more and more into “what would an athlete do for their kingdom” type of mindset and if you break your body down day after day, it needs some self care too for it to keep doing what it does for you.

Current drink: Can I say ACV shots? These have really been helping my tummy lately (although it’s still being stupid regardless). Shoot those things back before you eat and it helps to digest your food!

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So many benefits! I got my Mom doing it every morning (the she started a night shot on her own!) despite her hating it. The face she makes is awesome 😀

Just make sure you get a natural one with the mother. Take a tablespoon or so and water it down and take your shot!

Current food: Creature of habit, I don’t tend to change that much as I love every thing  that I eat, but kabocha, now that I found a nice dry one, is a serious love recently.

…not that it really left, I mean all other foodies know the feels when it comes to this golden treasure..

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Current obsession: 90210. Yeah summer is a snooze feast for shows so I started re-watching 90210 and …I’m hooked again.

Current craving: I think it’s the heat but I have seriously been craving a slushy for some strange reason. I tend to put my BCAA’s in my bottle and then right in the freezer for like 2 hours to sip on during my gym sessions. When you take it out and shake it, it’s like a Blue Raspberry slushy and I just find myself wanting more after I finish that one. Haven’t caved yet to get the real sugary thing (my stomach would probably hate me for it) but I need to give in at least once during the last few weeks to ice cream or something. Brave face on and accept the crappy feeling for a few days. It’s been far too long.

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Check out Elle’s Recipe HERE

Something similar catching my eye constantly (and always fuelling an inner struggle) is those smoothie bowls/protein ice cream bowls on IG. I want one so bad but I’m afraid because of a few reasons. My body hates digesting large amounts of liquids at one time. You will never see me eating soup, slurping down a smoothie or having a protein shake for that reason. Too much liquid makes me nauseous. Secondly, the thickeners (xanthum gum) that really give it the right texture will probably leave me on the floor.

Can I please incinerate my IBS ridden stomach and get a new one? -_-

Current need: I don’t need it but I kinda did. This is the Back At It Again Tank.

On zee card…Opps. I blame the “What’s New” Lululemon emails they taunt me with..

Current indulgence: Being done work 😉 not that my work was breaking my back or anything..

 

Current bane of my existence: The humidity. I love the heat and will never ever complain that it’s too hot, but the muggy, buggy and gross “I go outside and feel instantly wet and my hair turns into an afro” feeling, not so much.

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Current procrastination: Looking into Masters/Internship programs. I want to do it because I want to be ready, but despite having the time to do it, I just tend to sloth when I actually sit down for the day. Oops.

Current confession: I hate to be that girl…but I’m kind of looking forward to the new school rush at the gym to see if anyone interesting shows up. No no, no early 20’s sillys, I’m done with the early 20’s. Can someone mature and have a goal in life…oh and lifts…walk up to me and be my swolemate yet?

Current quote: Just something to think about

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Re-Posted from here 

When you do something, are they truly for you? Are they something to make you happy. Are they something that makes you excited?

..Or are they something that some force has told you is what you should want or how you should behave?

Current excitement: Working with my new client! I met up with her today for nutrition consulting and both of us are excited to begin our sessions together. She actually happens to attend my gym and live right in my area so I can have our meetings face-to-face which is really nice.

Current mood: Trying my best to keep happy afloat. I know I know I need to stop complaining about feeling sick, but it really does affect my mood. I have a lot of things to be happy about and to enjoy so I’m trying to keep those in the forefront while my stomach and I are at war.

Well that’s the update on moi, so tell me something about your life!

Much love! 

-Chelsea


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Sunday Feelz…Update On Moi

Hiya Friends,

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Hope you all are having a great weekend thus far and enjoy a nice lazy Sunday. I’m currently enjoying my first morning at the parents house and I’m  off to the gym in a little bit but I just wanted to give a short lil post about where I am currently as some people have been asking lately.

You know I like to be honest and open with you in my journey and struggles, so I feel as if I need to keep you all in the loop and I want to share! Although I do hate over talking about myself so I will keep it short and sweet.

Just like me…sorry I had to. 🙂

So, what’s been up with me and my health as of late?

Well, it has been officially about 6 months since I started working with my coach and have been increasing my intake. Although I will not post how much I have increased it, is quite a bit and as far as my weight, although many of you may not think this is a large enough amount, but I have gained about 4 pounds in that time.

Yes, I know weight gain is my goal, but keep in mind my frame. Four pounds may seem small for an average person along 6-7 months of eating in a surplus, but I’m 5’0 and under 100lbs so that is actually decent. Especially so because of the way my body works (ie. my fast metabolism) and my training. I just wanted to put that into perspective.

Despite me saying that, I feel no need justify myself to anyone. I’m moving forward in not only weight and strength, but my health is on point for the most part, my psychological health is improving and overall I just feel better.

So in order to keep it brief, I will put some of these things below in bullet form because that ensures I don’t over chat about them. 

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~I get my vitals done twice monthly to ensure that inner things are all good. All of them are good and normal for me. Heart rate is in athletic range and my BP is good for me (low, but that has been normal for my whole life).

~I get blood work done along with an ECG also about 2 times a month to check the minerals, vitamins and such. Both are good with one lil issue right now being my urea is too high, suggesting that my intake of protein is quite high and possibly I’m a bit dehydrated because of it. NOTE that this is not going to hurt my kidneys, high protein intake doesn’t cause harm but instead can aggravate if previous kidney problems, which I don’t have, are present.

~TMI for guys, so skip it, but I still suffer from amenorrhea. This is going to come back with time and although I’m going to get major slack for saying this, but I’m trying not to sweat it too much. YES I want it back because it’s important not only for fertility but also for a bunch of other things (hello bone health, etc) and tells me that I’m in good general health BUT I also know that weight gain is a process and over stressing about it is just not going to help. SO, yes I am working to get it back, but I have to let my body determine when it will trust me to that degree again.

~My stomach has been a BITCH. Excuse my language, but my IBS has been the worst it has ever been. I knew going into this ‘bulk’ that it wouldn’t be happy but I never knew how much it would be aggravated and how much that would affect my mood and body image issues. Thankfully, my doctor has given me something to help with digestion (Domperidone) and OMG that has made things so much better. I only take about 1/3 of the recommended dose but that alone has really helped me feel normal to an extent.

NOTE that this is nothing like laxative or anything else that can lead to dependency. You can stop taking it at any time, it has no consequences/side effects and has been said to be one of the most useful tools for those undergoing re-feeding.

What about Training?

I have always been up front and honest with you all about my refusal to give up on my training and I stand by that. My health and weight is improving right along with my training so I’m not planning on stopping or slowing my pace any time soon. I know I may get some judgement for that, but I’m just being honest. Training is my passion and it’s not going anywhere.

It is my mental clarity.

My stress relief

It gives me goals to focus on through the hard times of this process.

It’s just part of me. I’m stronger then I have ever been and if you see me train you can see my love for it (I have been actually told that).

So please, do not tell me I should cut back or worst yet, stop, until I’m ‘better.’ I’m getting  better on both sides. Health and the gym are both improving simultaneously. I’m not being stubborn here, I’m being a realist. I need it to keep me going and, quite frankly, it keeps me happy. This process is hard and somedays knowing that I get that gym time gets me through it.

That aside, I said my strength has increased?

Oh yes, that food has gone to work for sure. I think that my strength has gone up a lot faster then my weight and I’m seeing muscle starting to come back and it’s just further pushing me to keep going.

I want more.

So here are some highlights.

My back squat has gone from 95lbs to 135lbs for equal reps (about 5ish on a good day)

My front squat has surpassed my previous from when I was heavier. (about 105lbs for 5)

My bench is back at body weight. I want to push this further but I also know that bench is very much affected by body weight in most people, so keep trekkin.

Pull-ups have gone from about 5-6 back up to almost 10 depending on grip despite the slight weight increase.

Overhead press dipped down to 35lbs but is now back up to where it was previously at 50lbs. <- OHP is one of the hardest movements for me so bare with me. It’s progress.

The one lift I’m frustrated with is deadlifts. Granted I haven’t done them for a long time (shameful for a ‘gymrat’ I know), but I’m stuck at just above bodyweight right now. There is something I’m not doing right with my form I’m sure so it’s something to look into if I want to improve.

So yeah, in both my mental and physical health, I’m progressing forward. I cannot thank all of my supporters more for what they have done for me during this process and moving forward, I know that things can only get better. I have a sense of mental clarity and peace more so then ever. I’m seeing more and more what makes me happy and branching out to explore more.

So overall I’m happier, have more energy and am just enjoying life much more. It makes me very happy to hear others see that too because hearing that you are glowing is much better then ‘are you okay?’

That is one of the best changes thus far.

And throwing up an end of the post cheesy flex-it pic just because I feel you need to see something and I’m starting to like my shoulders more…

#DontJudgeMe

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Before you say it…booty growth is my biggest goal. 😉

And now I’m embarrassed ha! Signing off! It’s my favourite time. Gyyyymmmin.

Much love friends!

-Chelsea


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Currently…Whoa It’s June!

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Tons of photos courtesy of Rita and my trip to the Arboretum last Monday. So beautiful and warm. 

Happy Memorial Day to my American Friends! Hope you are soaking up some sun wherever you are of just catching up on some R&R!

This weekend was a pretty great one for me! To start, Emily surprised us and dropped back into the house a day early on Wednesday evening. Rita and I were so happy to see her and we got to spend a few hours during the day here and there as she went back and forth between us and her BF’s house. Oh the single lady status for Rita and I…le sigh

Saturday included some of this at the Kitty Cafe

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8 weeks old…

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….Balls of fluffy love. OMG. So sweet. I was kind of disappointed that we couldn’t hold them, but as you can see, they were pooped and I can see that them being tossed around to every child that came through would be too stressful. 

Back into the heat (ain’t complaining…), Rita decided to jump in the splash pad but the lil kids were too crazy and splashing everywhere that it lasted a whole 2 seconds…

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Don’t take her outfit as a serious indicator of the weather. It was 32 before the humidex..

Then we almost died when a car ran over a bottle and it literally was so loud that it sounded like an explosion.

The whole park went silent following a huge gasp from the crowd. Thinking about it afterwards, its amazing to see the natural reactions of the human species. Instant panic means everyone freezes and all looks to the direction of the sound as they try to process the ‘threat.’ Now, if it actually was a threat it would have then turned into chaos with people running, screaming, trampling others and grabbing their kids but thankfully, it was only the smashing of a bottle.

Psychology in action. 

Finally, yesterday, Jimmy (friend from McMaster) drove down from TO to catch up and it had been so long since I had even seen him that it was nice to be able to see what his adulting (aka he has a legit job!) self has been up to.

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So I haven’t done an update in a while and since we are here at the end of May (crazy to think that school ended a whole month ago!) I figured I would do one of the currently style posts that float around the bloggy land.

Current Confession:

I’m currently writing this rather then doing my work just because I have a cup of tea in front of me. Tea + blogging first, then work…makes no sense I know.

Current Book:

What’s a book?

For real, I’m bad and don’t really read. I read journals and such for my work and school and blogs for my entertainment. As for actual literature, I can’t sit still long enough to read a physical book.

Current Music:

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Yup, still stuck on this song. It’s too good. I have also come to love this cover of Drakes One Dance. I do like the original version, but I really like this version. Check it!

Current Guilty Pleasure:

Does soaking up the sun count? For real, sun in large doses isn’t good but I’m sorry I have waited so long for this weather that I can’t help but literally try to bathe myself in it all day…

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Current Entertainment:

OMG Mistresses is on tonight!

Current Wish/Need:

Tickets to the the GNC Toronto Pro SuperShow!! I just found out this week that it’s this Saturday!! I love going and hope I can round of some peeps and make the trek to TO to attend…. and kick some aaaaasssss at the plank off for Sick Kids hospital. Will I take it again this year? Hmmm…

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I know a lot of the fitness YouTuber’s I watch are going to be wandering around and I’m hoping to make a spotting or two.

Current Food:

I have currently slid back into my obsession with pistachios. My oatsies are being garnished with all of the roasted green treasures.

Current Drink:

Nothing new here. I’m not much of a crazy drinker. I still have my normal afternoon Tim’s Peppermint Tea despite sweating my face off to drink it.

#Sacrifice

Current Triumph:

Being told I was exceptional by my supervisor.

 

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This job I’m working now is just the best thing. I’m producing work that she says ‘goes beyond what she expected from a typical undergrad’ while still fully immersing myself in this summer as well. I get the privilege of doing my work whenever I want and it’s more then amazing.

I’m so happy that I can please her and excited to work towards our ultimate goal of the summer, which is publication of my systematic review. I would be a published author peeps!

Current Bane of Existence:

Needles. I had to get my blood drawn today…Coincidentally, so did Rita, so we braved it out together….and then we went to the mall.

#EarnedThat**it.

Oh, and also, a certain person who will remain unnamed…

Just so you know, I’m a very very hard person to make upset. I don’t dislike people but when I say no, I mean no. End of story. Asking 4 thousand times and getting more and more inappropriate to the point of me feeling slightly icky is just pushing my button a lil bit too far.

Said person doesn’t read my blogs or interact with social media so I have no issue venting here.

Current Blogger Crush:

Dietician Deanna. I seriously love her. Her Instagram and her blog. She is just so real and open about everything.

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Current Indulgence:

Shopping. Guys, since I got my first paycheque I have been giving myself some loving in the materialistic way…

#SorryImNotSorry

Current Blessing:

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My friends. I’m really enjoying having the time to spend with my friends and explore new places this summer while not having to feel guilty that I’m not working. I have the best of both worlds this summer and I’m going to embrace it. I’m very thankful to have the opportunity that I do.

Current Outfit:

Anything summery! I have been whipping out all the things short, flowy and flirty because when summer weather comes, I actually may have a slightly better sense of dressing myself.

Current Excitement:

Did I mention the Pro SuperShow 😛

Current Link:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVHDEPIsXrg 

It ain’t always all lulu’s and donuts….

Current Mood:

😀 ….and sore..cuz leg day.

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Something you’re currently thankful for?
What’s your summer ‘uniform’?
-Chelsea


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Friday Favourites

My Friends!

Happy Friday My Peeps.

Whats new?

This Friday I am loving a few things and that all starts off with the fact that…

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What are friends?

Just kidding. This exam period didn’t try to run me over with a truck this year and I’m so thankful that it was super relaxing. I had a total of two (unheard of for me!) and they were a week apart so I had the time to enjoy the beautiful weather that last weekend brought us with my housies.

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So much love for them you have no idea. ❤

After all of it is said and done, I can say that my easy-peasy approach never led me to one of these moments…

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Speaking of friends

I had a lil buddy for my ice cream tonight…

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Adrian’s choice was spiderman –> mix of bubble gum and fruity flavours. The kids like the colourful ones I suppose.

My friend Rebecca’s lil cutie, Audrina. She literally would not let her Mom take her bowl away until she drank it all. Like ALL of it. So funny…

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She’s got good taste in ice cream 😉

As for me, they brought my caramel Skor gelato back and so got that on top of my usual salty caramel because we all know that dat flavour ain’t going anywhere until they take it away from me…

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More Ice Cream?

This…I need this! Holy moly I have wanted to try the cashew milk ones (apparently even better then the coconut milk varieties which are pretty good, almond milk ones…not so much and soy…no thanks), but omg the caramel make me officially get on it…

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…and I don’t need to say much about this…

Grilling.

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New BBQ (err. Dad’s…). First grill of the season. First halibut steaks of the season. Nuff said.

My job is intriguing me.

Despite the fact that I don’t get much time off, as I start my ‘job’ on Monday, I’m thinking my summa will still be pretty easy going.  I previously mentioned, I believe (?) that I got a job in Guelph doing research that had a component of nutrition. SO, I snagged that baby as fast as I could because a position in dietetics that isn’t volunteer is hard to come by! Anywho, basically after breaking down her research focus, I will be looking into couple concordance in health behaviours and interest in health interventions and early prevention/screening tools. In other words, does your significant other affect whether or not you would do a new screening for a given disease or whether or not you follow certain health behaviours? Cool eh?

On top of all of that, I get to do my work when and wherever I want just as long as I get it done and it’s full time paid work. I’m getting paid to do literature reviews on what makes people do things for their health!

Can I say winning yet?

I’m content. 😀

Finally, speaking of research, I came across an interesting article today on Facebook and decided to share…

Metabolic Damage…Again. 

I know I have touched on this topic time and time again, but heres to giving you another resource to take a peak at if you are still on the fence and not ready to drop the cardio and eat all the foods your body is crying out for.

A damaged metabolism does more then just make loosing weight nearly impossible (and fat gain possibly…well, possible). Classic symptoms of your body being overly stressed including digestive upset (bloating, indigestion, etc), water retention, fatigue, etc are all very common and just plain annoying if you ask me. Furthermore, more serious things such as the loss in the ability to absorb some of your nutrients (because your gut is A-N-G-R-Y) and chronically high levels of cortisol (hello fat gain and overtaxed organs) also happen and are not things to mess around with.

So without going back into it, I will conclude with saying…

Eat more then 1200 calories because that doesn’t mean you loose weight, it often means you gain it.

The longer you starve yourself, the longer it’s going to take to heal

This same goes for cardio. More cardio is not better. More cardio just means more fixing later. Do as little as you can to simply keep your ticker tickin.

No hour to two hour treadmill or stair steppin session mmmkay?

So yeah, I hope you had a great Friday. Good luck with any left over exams for my fellow students and have a great weekend my friends!

-Chelsea


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Winding Down This Wednesday

Trigger Warning. For those who are currently struggling or are triggered by the discussion of exercise, psychological struggles, pictures, food, etc please refrain from reading this lil update. The goal here is to ensure everyone remains in a safe place mentally when on my blog!

My friends.

Do you know how much it has hurt me not to be able to chatter with you much this semester? I have my moments where I wonder if you are feeling let down or frustrated with me thinking that I just don’t enjoy or want to blog anymore but please believe me when I say that is far from the truth.

I miss you all and I miss sharing things with you! 

I have tried to push aside the guilt about not blogging and focus on the fact that I’m finishing up my semester hopefully on a high and that I am actively working to bring back up my health status…

My health. How is that progress now that I mention it?

I owe you an update.

I have been officially been working with my coach, Mike, since the beginning of January. I had brought it up before then but we didn’t really gett’er going for real until then. So I suppose I’m wrapping up my third month with him. So what has that brought?

Weight Gains?

Can’t say really because Mike doesn’t want me weighing myself. I will be honest and say that I was initially weighing myself because I felt as if I needed to know when the scale began to tip up. You heard about my lil meltdown I had previously when it did increase a bit and so I have been forbidden to get on it since. To be rational though, that number really truly DOESN’T matter. Your weight tells you nothing about what is going on with your body really. It doesn’t tell you whether you’ve gained fat, water, muscle and so forth. It doesn’t tell you if your organs are repairing themselves. Whether your hormones are regulating. NOTHING. So really, all it does it make you obsessed with a number for no apparent reason.

So with that in mind,  I do weekly progress pictures with Mike and he makes changes as we go…which is EVERY SINGLE WEEK.

Food Gains?

Duh…

I’m not going to say what my specific current numbers are, but to give you kind of an idea…

I’m almost eating my weight in fat (number of grams to number of pounds).

I’m eating triple my weight in carbohydrates.

And around double my weight in protein.

And this is only the beginning. Pretty much without fail, with each passing week, I get another increase. The struggle is real, ya feel? Guys may not (4000+ cals would get their attention), but ladies, do you know how much food that is. Geesh

What I will say is that is just another piece of evidence to show you that you don’t need to be restricting to 1200 calories to maintain your weight or even loose weight! Yes, everybody’s body is different and they all metabolize and respond to nutrients differently but let me be an example to you. Eating high carbs doesn’t make you fat. Eating more then 1200 calories per day doesn’t make you fat.

I may be 5 feet tall but I train hard and so my metabolism is basically a beast…err efficient. I’m truly learning that I need a lot of food just to keep up with it, let alone, make it grow.

BUT! Even if you don’t train, you need to fuel your body sufficiently.

Strength Gains?

Oh yes my friends!

My pride and joy right now is my squat. Since reading week (mid February) my back squat has increased 25lbs! I’m now squatting more then 1.5 times my body weight which is so exciting as that was a lift that really took a hit when my body basically gave up on me (i.e. my strength took a nose dive) in the gym after the weight loss. I’m pushing so hard to reach that 135 ASAP!

Overall though, I’m much more energetic in the gym, my lifts have been feeling amazing and almost everything is just going up. I PR at least once a week in something and it’s just an amazing feeling.

GIMME ALL DEM GAINZ!…

Please…

Mental Gainz?

Lots! Yes, I have had my share of mini meltdowns throughout this process and things may have taken longer then they should have sometimes, but the point is that I not only have to fight the physical but I’m also fighting back the mental as well and that is tough.

I get frustrated with myself sometimes because I wish I could be like everyone else and be happy to be told to eat more food, but I have to take a step back though and realize what significant barriers I have broken down!

~It may have taken me 3 weeks longer then it was supposed to but I managed to add 4 tbsp of nut butter to my day ON TOP OF what I was already eating in my morning oats. This was huge because I had this ‘rule’ in my head that said I was only allowed to eat 1 serving a day MAX (2 tbsp).

~I still have my treat meals (almost still weekly) despite the increases. That was hard for me because I felt that I should stop eating ice cream every Friday due to my already eating more then normal.

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Jays is back open for the season! Let the spoiling begin!! Homemade Reese’s Pieces Peanut Butter gelato (right) and my ultimate favourite, Salty Caramel (left). All their products are made in store. Drools….

~I realized I still get hungry despite eating more. That was another big thing for me. You see, for me, my struggles surround feelings of fullness. I don’t necessarily freak out over calories per say, but I freak out thinking I’m going to feel more full because when I’m more full my tummy will stick out and that’s when I have issues. When you start to feed your body properly after a time of restriction, your body starts to realize that it’s getting more and with that, it can then allow itself to use those additions and ASK for those additions through hunger or other signals. Often times you may think something is a lot but then the next day your stomach will start growling for that extra food because it wants it. It’s proof that your body is efficient. More food or just enough food means that your metabolism is able to be the most efficient and use those nutrients to the best it can, making you an optimal burning machine.

~I haven’t gotten fat. Despite a fairly big increase (in my opinion) to what I’m eating, I have not gotten fat. Instead I have gotten stronger and I have been getting comments that I look healthier (despite the fact that I still really haven’t gained that much). My coach tries to keep me on the straight and narrow about that whole situation but it’s hard for me not to be negative sometimes. That, my friends, is a work in progress.

Any Negatives?

Any change won’t come without it’s share of some not so nice things. For me, the biggest struggle, other then my mind (I’m looking at you ED!), has been my IBS kicking up a fuss with every damn increase pretty much. If any of you have irritable stomachs you know how moody you can get when your stomach decides to screw with you. It sucks, like hard. I’m learning the very weird limits my stomach has and I have had to adapt and try to work with it or else I will just spend all my days with excessive and painful gas, no hunger (because of said gas) and bloating. Sorry TMI but it just doesn’t make this process any easier physically or mentally.

I’m still pushing though and I have so much love and support plus an amazing coach who is backing me up and having patience with some of my irrational thoughts and whining. I will do this and I will come out on top.

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So, I don’t know if you have been wondering what I look like at the moment as my selfie game has been weak for the past lil bit…

I was super hesitant to post this because I was afraid of what you might think. I was afraid that you would think I looked gross and too skinny. Well the fact is that I am too skinny but I’m moving in the right direction and I should be proud of the gains that I have made regardless of how small they may be. This is my starting point and I’m full speed ahead towards my goals.

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The left was the first progress picture I sent to Mike. The right was two weeks ago. Again, the changes may be small and I’m still small but I’m making progress and he was super happy to tell me about it by putting this shot together for me to compare. 

If you have continued to stick by me during this dry period that is this semester, I appreciate it so much and I cannot say sorry enough for not bringing you the content you deserve. I hope that I can do better now that this crazy semester is coming to an end.

I love you all and lets hope my blog can be a bit more active once again because lets be real, my chattering and random thoughts just cannot be contained!

-Chelsea