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Goals Are NOT Resolutions.

My Friends!

Happy New Year and I hope you had a great Christmas! My Christmas and New Years were all about family. My Mom’s birthday happens to land on New Years Eve, so most years I tend to stay home and celebrate with her and my Dad. Below are some snaps from the past week or so…

Top Left: Nana and Papa

Top Middle: The Fam shot for Xmas 2016

Top Right: The Cheese face with my new Pandora locket necklace. I had been eyeing this for a while but I’m too broke to even think about buying something like that…Thanks Mom and Dad. They even put the three charms in the locket too. A sparkly heart, LOVE and a double heart with a crown. All hearts, they know me too well. 

Bottom Left: Maggie in her Xmas collar with bells

Bottom Right: My very impressed parents that I made them take a picture right out of bed 😉

And if you’re wondering…


…yes I did sport my Bear Paws onesie (it has a butt flap and everything friends!) all day even with my extended family, who arrived later for the dinner part of the day.


Insert selfie because I’m actually kind of obsessed with this picture. #NoEgo I just think it’s a good shot. Nice lighting. Nice background and no cheese smile.


So yes, the week and a half at home was nice and relaxing. I handed in my first application last night (for the MAN program at UofGuelph) as I settled back into my house in Guelph with Rita, got to see all my famjam back at my gym this morning and trained Karl.

Twas a good day.

This week will be nice and slow for me as I still have a week off until I start back with classes. Rita started her internship today, so she will unfortunately only be here to sleep basically and Em is still in Montreal, so I will be keeping myself busy prepping Rita’s food (hehe I enjoy it mmmkay), catching up with some friends from school, doing some of my volunteer stuff (my first contribution was posted on Nicole’s Facebook page today! Check it out here. It’s an article on picking an appropriate protein powder), applications and just keeping my zen going.


So onto those goals…

I emphasized the fact that these are goals and not resolutions because I don’t really believe in resolutions.

Check out my FB post below for my thoughts on resolutions…


Basically I believe that if you have a GOAL you do it now. When you have resolution…well we all know how those go. I feel like resolutions are something we put off because:

1. We don’t really want to do it

2. It’s going to be a huge change

See the problem here? Either reason will most definitely 95% of the time lead to not keeping it.

As I see it, if something will benefit you in any way, you don’t need to put a start date on it that is sometime in the future.

Why wait to grow?

Why hold back on something that is positive?

It makes no sense to me.

A goal on the other hand is something I see slightly differently because it doesn’t have this ‘starting in the new year’ piece attached to it. I think we can all fall victim to the two issues above with goals too, but I think that goals are more often set with greater intent and thought and are simply things we are wishing to accomplish starting right than and there.

For example, I have a goal to grow my glutes in the new year. Now I should have said CONTINUE to grow my glutes because I didn’t just plan this for Jan 1. No, I had this goal a few months ago and just want to keep it going.

Before you say that is not a goal because it’s too general, I realize this and need to set more specific parameters, but at the time, I simply had it in my mind to really focus on two things:

  1. More glute accessory work rather than focusing solely on squats and lunges. These are great exercises BUT are great for the entire lower body rather than more glute focused. So instead, once I told myself that I was gunna take the time to focus on glutes, the next hamstring focused leg day, I added in barbell hip thrusts and started experimenting with sumo deadlifts. I also put a greater focus on kickbacks and getting more reps with those and learning the lovely (…awkward looking) cable pull through.

2. MORE CONTRACTION! An ugly butt in the gym, is a nicer butt outside the gym. Always remember this. Thanks Marie Wold for coining this saying. 

So yes, I failed to set a time limit or specific measurement for this goal… In my defence I don’t own a tape measure…I should get on that. But I wanted to make a change and so I did it THE NEXT DAY! Not on Monday. Not in the New Year.


That is a goal friends (well that an something using the SMART principles..)

So, what are some other goals for the new year? 

I haven’t really put much thought into it, because as I said, when I want to change something I just do it and that can happen at any time. I will say that I have a few things I want to accomplish this year though:

~Accept an offer for my post graduate studies. I haven’t determined whether I want the Masters/internship combined or the internship as of yet (provided I even get an offer…) because I keep flip flopping now. 

~A consistant goal is to hit a mid to high 80 GPA (also meaning Deans Honour Roll). This is realistic for me as I have attained that every year and is not stressing me like crazy to achieve while still having my life. School is not life friends. 

~Fitness..? I haven’t actually decided that yet aside from glute development. I hit my big goal of my 4×8 135b back squat right before Christmas as I intended and almost cried I was so happy. So I don’t know if I want to put in another squat goal or go for a different focus.

~Health..? Be patient with my body. I haven’t really thought about HOW I’m going to do this but I know it’s necessary. I need to heal and every day is not going to be flowers and daisies just because the parasites are gone. I have NO GUT BACTERIA and so my tummy needs to be babied for a bit. I also need to be nicer to myself and know that my body is in a transition phase. It just got attacked and it may not be as tight as I want it right now and I have to accept that point in my journey. Self love is an ongoing process and something everyone needs to focus on, but I do think I have come a long way and will continue to challenge my bad habits and poor self talk to be even more positive about myself. 

Well thats about all I have for the moment. Yes I want to continue my volunteering stuff, reaching for new opportunities that make me happy, be more social, relax more and obviously continue to work with and hopefully gain more clients, but those are always in my head and are not necessarily something I would formulate a goal from at the moment.

So, I don’t want to say that having a goal starting in January is bad or totally doomed. If you have one, do you and make a plan to stick with it. Don’t think of it as something to dread and don’t try to aim too high or they will not stay. This is a change to your lifestyle that is good and something you should want to do, so make it positive and be confident in yourself when you are ready to go for it.

Speaking of positivity, lets end off with someone who always brings the happy…






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I’ll Start On Monday…

My new diet starts on Monday

Starting Monday, I will live in the gym

My new body transformation will start on Monday

I will be a better me….

Starting on Monday.

start on monday

Happy September 1st friends. New month and this month in particular tends to be associated with the “after-summer fresh new goals” to reach before the new year.

We all see it….Similar to the New Year resolution season, with the return of school comes the new gym go-ers, the new dieters who want to loose all their summer weight plus more by Christmas, and people making plans/goals that surround making a fairly significant change in their life.

This is like a whole month of “I will start on Monday” and unfortunately this mentality often leads to starting changes as of September 1st and ending sometime between September 10th and October 1st. It’s a sad reality, and personally, a mentality that I often just cannot understand.

You see, I am fully supportive of goals. Goals that are something that lead to personal growth and bettering yourself. So yes, goals are great. What I don’t understand is why self-improvement has to be seen as a punishment or something to be delayed to a later date. In this case, after the weekend.

Why wait to better yourself?

I ask myself this question often when someone says that famous phrase to me…

should get my shit together

Here’s how I see it…

1. Your goal is unrealistic

2. Your goal is seen as a punishment

3. Its just not a priority enough

Either way, the chances of them lasting is slim to none. Take the gym as an example, we all dread the gym being packed, but always know that the stampede will clear in a few short weeks.

This is awful to admit because it’s great that people want to become more fit and I welcome those who want to improve upon their health and become stronger versions of themselves, but this is really just observation at it’s finest. 

So lets look at the first point. Your goal will NOT be reached if you are looking at something as an “all of nothing” type of deal. I will cut X from my diet forever. I will go to the gym 2 hours a day, EVERYDAY, I will live off of salad…etc, etc. These are NOT realistic or attainable for anyone nor should they be thought to be required for bettering your health. These overly loafty goals are often pushed to Monday because you are wanting to be ‘free’ before you feel that life is going to suck.


This is why they fail. All-or-nothing goals will never work. Take one thing and change that. Make this a lifestyle by making something manageable.

~I will start by going to the gym 3 times a week

~I will turn out the lights 30 minutes earlier 3 times a week

~I will pack up my own lunch rather then buying out for work/school

So what about #2?

Sometimes people go into making changes because they feel they have to. Got a bad doctors report? The prescription –> get yo ass to the gym and loose 20 pounds. Doctors orders. You may feel the need to do it, but that doesn’t mean you’re gunna like it.

My new life starts on Monday.

Or what about writing that paper you need to get done. You know that sitting down and writing rather then enjoying time with friends sucks, so, push it off until Monday. Not only are you loosing time and probably adding stress to your life (plus loosing sleep), you probably ended up using some of that time doing something mindless because you told yourself you were gunna start later.

Ever done that? You have the time to kill but have already accepted that later start date so you don’t use that spare time effectively?

Instead, do an hour here and there over that weekend in between socializing. That’s not that big of a commitment, you aren’t spending hours in a chair slaving typing away and come Monday, look you have half your paper at least drafted.

When you look at something as a punishment or something that is being forced on you, you won’t want to do it. Nonetheless, how is moving it to a later date making it anything less then what you currently perceive it as? Punishment derived goals also fail because you have set your mind up that you hate this thing and that it is required of you to do. There is no internal driving force for you to want to do it.

Time to change your mindset.

Something may suck but turn it around to something positive. Need to change your lifestyle due to health issues? Make it a challenge to yourself in some way or take it upon yourself to try something new that you may end up loving. Find a recipe that you love and make it more nutrient dense. Work your way up to doing some race or lifting a certain weight. Don’t focus on the required target as if it is something ‘forced on you’ because that will just breed negativity. Instead, tell yourself that this is for you and make it something you want to do for yourself.

The last one is one that really hits most people hard. A certain goal or challenge may be a great learning opportunity or something that would really benefit a person but they just don’t do it.

Why wouldn’t they want to do something that simply makes them a better version of themselves?

It’s not a priority. 

Yeah it may be great and all but it’s not important enough to them to make that change. That is a sad reality, but often times this is common and people miss out on a lot of great things and chances.


So, overall I think that goals are great. They are visions. They are about helping to make yourself the best you can be. They fuel you to push and challenge yourself BUT that is only if you do them and take them seriously.

Ask yourself why wait to do something you want. Why hesitate to make yourself better. Want to make a change? DO IT RIGHT NOW!

…Or you may just let the chance slide on away from you and miss out.

It’s simply your choice. 


Thanks to everyone over at Thinking Out Loud for listening and a big shout out to our lovely hostess Amanda.

Have you every wanted to do something but waited too long to do it?



Follow-Up + Tuesday Thoughts

Hey Friends!

Just a few lil thoughts I had to share for today. Bring on the typical Lil Miss Fitness Freak randomness

1. Thank You

Thank you all so much for your love, feedback and support on yesterday’s vlog. It means the world to me trust me. I promise to bring you along on this journey with me so that that hopefully it can help anyone who may be going through the same thing. Facing fears is not easy. It doesn’t just happen without internal struggles and some ugly times and I hope to be as real with you as possible.

2. Feedback

Speaking of yesterday’s video, a lot of you had concerns about what to do next or that you will gain weight if you stop doing cardio. Check out my follow-up video below (click on the thumbnail) as I attempted to clear your concerns. I hope that helps.

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Complete 180 comin at you random-wise as we continue these Tuesday Thoughts….

3. I’m Really Gunna Miss My Dad’s BBQ

For real though..


Sweet potatoes + grilled curry seasoned hoki fillet topped with avocado and olive oil drizzle + unpictured appie salad as usual

 I thought roasted sweet potatoes were good, but charred on the barby just takes them to a whole new level of amazingness. Anyone else in the same boat where the black, charred parts are the bestest?

4. I Faced My First Fear Challenge Today.

As part of increasing my calories, specifically carbohydrates, my nutritionist and I planned on slowly adding an intraworkout supplement into my training. It was something I was thinking of doing for a while, but dried fruit really freak me out because sugar is the biggest fear thing for me. I actually brought up the idea as I have seen many people on YouTube who use candy as a pre or intra (meaning during) workout boost of sugar to finish their workout strong as opposed to dying off and half-assing the end part of their training because their glycogen or energy stores are gone at that point. As Gabrielle and I discussed, once you reach about 1.5 hours of training, it is about time that you consider a refuel as your glycogen stores are probably starting to wane a lil bit. I have regularly felt drop off and so I really did think about poppin some dried fruit as a way to get my flame back on when I start to fizzle out BUUUUUTTT..

The sugar freaked me out and I didn’t do it.

Today, as part of my goals this week, I will say that I successfully popped dried figs during my workout today and I didn’t die. Did I feel a bit of guilt? Yes. I felt guilty as my body heated up like fire because my metabolism is not used to concentrated sources of sugar. I felt guilty feeling that sugar on my teeth after I ate them just tauntin me that I ate something I feared.

What I also noticed?

I didn’t feel half asleep on my drive home due to being uber depleted and fatigued after being drained completely during my workout. I was also able to power through the rest of my workout feeling more alive.

So like I said before, I need to focus on those later benefits that I felt and not think too much about the other things. I train hard and if it helps me perform better, why should I be afraid of it?

So the dried figs will continue on. One day at a time.

5. I Miss My Housies.

Emily texted me the other day and she made my whittle heart melt.


These two have honestly become my best friends and I truly miss them already. We have our own lil jokes. Our own traditions. Our own quirks. We even have our own go-to restaurant that we always have our date nights at.

So glad my housemates love Thai food as much as I do. Red Papaya is our jam-a-rama.

So glad my housemates love Thai food as much as I do. Red Papaya is our jam-a-rama.

I get to have Rita in my life for the next month or two before she heads back home to China, but I’m without my Emily for the whole summer as she lives in Montreal. I’m excited to live with them in our new house next year

6. I’m Going Over Board On Halibut.

Spring and summer time is the ONLY time that halibut steaks are available. Steaks are immensely better then any fillet will ever be tenderness and moistness (sorry…) wise because you are baking it with the bone in and the skin wrapped around it.

Pretty sure I have eaten this 3 times this week…#Obsessed.


Once again, grill that baby up for the biggest mouth-gasm.

7. That Meme Though..


So true. Anyone else? I actually feel like a dog no joke. I will totally make you a plate but don’t even think about touching whats on my plate if you want your fingers.

8. Nut Butter Amazingness.

So I absolutely adore the White Chocolate Raspberry Questbar flavour and well, this is an obvious love..


Why must you been so smalll whittle package. That won’t last.

Found this gem on Paleo approved, no crap and no sugar added. Bam.

9. Speaking Of Questbars…Squeeeeeaal.

I have a problem. They were released this morning… Money was removed from my bank account and a box was ready to be shipped to my parents house by this afternoon.

There are worse addictions right?

Anywho, those are my thoughts for today. I hope you had a great Tuesday friends.

Are you a fan of chocolate mint?

What’s you’re go-to restaurant?


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The Littlest Things Can Be Marvelous. MIMM

Hi friends! Happy Monday!

I had a jam packed day (Oh the Mondays’) and I’m pretty wiped, but I felt some things were some kinda Marvelous this past weekend so I just had to make a quick share of those things with you all!

Thanks Katie for the linkup!

So was was so Marvelous you ask?

1. Listening to my body and letting myself sleep in on Sunday…

I’m someone who is a hard core scheduler and on gym days, especially when I don’t have a class to go to, it’s 6am sharp for that bounce outta bed wake-up call. This weekend though, I was really tired and I told myself that one hour extra will help me in the long run (yes I know it was just one hour, baby steps I say) and I don’t have to be perfect with my schedule all the time.

And guess what?

I didn’t die.

And my shoulder workout was fab. I even PR’ed. See #4


2. Crossin things off my to-do list like it was my job.


Messing writing. My excuse…it’s a lefty thang

Oh the satisfaction that comes from crossing things out. Why that is, I have no idea, but running my pen through all those quizzes, assignments, readings, etc, just feels amazing.

Don’t you agree?

This is why I write lists…to be able to scratch them to pieces over time. 😉

3. Making new traditions with my housies.

Make that, enhancing traditions. Emily, Rita and I go to the farmers market every Saturday morning after my lifting session and I absolutely adore our little tradition. What has made it even better is that GoodnessMe! finally opened up and because it’s practically right across the street we make a hippity-hoppity over there too.

Makes me happy

But not my wallet.

Why do I love health food stores so much…

4. Finally up’ing my overhead press.

That is one hard exercise to advance in let me tell you. Or is it just me? I know Max Chewning said that it’s a hard lift, so I’m gunna go with that.

Finally moved from 50lbs to 55lbs for four clean…errr grinder on the last one…reps. Weeeooo. Yeah, doesn’t seem like that much, but I’ll take it.

Stubborn shoulders.

5. Random girl chats.

You know, I really loved being at home for Christmas and being with my famjam but I have to say that I really love my girls here. Last night Emily parked her lil tushie on the stairs and we talked and laughed about old medical traumas that we had as kids. Not funny then, but now? Lolz. I love our random chats.

So happy to be stickin by them in our new apartment next year. ❤ 🙂

6. Looking forwards to a week packed full of friends.

I have a dinner date with Lexi from my high school at the Red Papaya tomorrow after my last class. Then on Friday, I’m meeting up with a friend (fellow bodybuilder, but she’s competed a few times) from back at my home gym, Sue, for coffee and catch up. She is the nicest person you could meet. So sweet and encouraging! Lastly, the boys are back. Emily’s boyfriend, Chad and his friend Cameron are trekking it from Montreal to spend the weekend with us ladies so that should be all kinds of funtimes.

Well that’s all my Marvelousness for the night.

I’m going to go and have my Marvelous smore’s questie and protein pudding with some Top Chef Canada before heading to bed for my Marvelous 5:30am wakeup call tomorrow morning. Gotta love hittin the gym before earlier classes.

Peace Peeps




Question For Ya’ll.

My friends, I have a question for you all. I have been hesitant to ask for a lil bit now because I don’t want you to think negatively of me, but please check out my vlog below and give me your thoughts as this is something I’m actually excited about but need a lil bit of push to gett’er going if there is an interest.

Thumbnail Question for YallThank you always for all your love and support!

Don’t be afraid to post anything. Positive or negative, I want to hear it all!

Happy Tuesday.



Change Doesn’t Have A Set Date

Hey Friends!

Happy New Year!

How was your New Years Eve? Do anything fun?

Chatter at me. 😀

As I mentioned, It was my Mom’s birthday, so we spent a nice evening at The Keg for dinner…

IMG_7016Nomz. I got to try their baked sea bass! So good, although I wish I got more. #SadFace.

…and then we came back and watched a movie (The Inside Man, good movie!) and then did our usual watching of the ball drop and calling my Nana and Papa at midnight.

I also happened to prep a lil something interesting for my parent’s January 1st breakfast.

IMG_7027Mini cinnamon rolls using that same bread (Cinnabon bread) I made the french toast out of previously. Not the healthiest choice but seriously how cool is it that they turned out lookin like a cute lil roll when it was a slice of bread?

Yes. I can be proud of my most simplest, random ideas. If you want some all I did was soak the bread slices in that same french toast ‘batter’ I mentioned in that previous post, roll them up and stuff them into sprayed muffin tins. Oh and top them with a lil bit of melted coconut oil to get those tops crispy and sprinkle with some more cinnamon if you would like.

IMG_7017Bake at 350 for about 20 minutes or until they have reached the golden-ness and crispy-ness you like. They may look a lil deformed and small  pre-baked, but once they came out, the edges were golden and crisp and they had puffed up a bit and filled out into a nice cinnabon shape.

IMG_7022And voila! Sorry for the gross dark pictures. I made these last night at 9:30pm because I would be at the gym when my parents needed foodz.

For the ‘icing,’ I just used some of my vanilla New Zealand whey and some water. Casein would be best as it’s thicker, or go all out and use a cream cheese frosting for a more authentic feel. Also, these would be great with nuts, like walnuts or pecans, stuffed inside!

They made my parents happy and so they made me happy.

Top Chef over here ya know. 😉

Did anyone else kick off their New Year with a workout?

I decided to go all crazy and begin my year with a grueling leg workout because, well, it was leg day anyways and the gym was all like…

The perks of not getting hamm’ed on New Years Eve. Gimme all the squat racks. 😀

Oh and I took them, held onto them and squatted my lil tushie off doing a total of 4 variations of squats throughout my workout.

1 5×5 of back squats

1 4×6-7 of front squats

1 4x failure of pistol squats (this was my secondary exercise to leg press)

3x failure of heavy goblet squats.

Yup, my legs were like cedar blocks crawling walking out of there this morning.

Now onto the real reason for this post…

It’s that time of year again…

The time where people feel the need to make goals for changing themselves or modifying things in their lifestyles that they felt were lacking in the previous year.

Top New Years Resolutions you will hear people discussing…

  1. Eat healthier
  2. Go to the gym
  3. Loose weight
  4. Work less
  5. Spend less

Why is it that when you list them all out that they seem so grueling?

It also makes them seem like punishment, no? Or like this is something you have to force upon yourself to create misery.

The sad reality is that most of these will not be met and will be given up before the month of February. Perhaps that is because of what I just mentioned.

I have a lil bit of an issue with setting New Years Resolutions in general and so I wanted to discuss that in a video that is posted below (click the picture for the link as usual). I also mentioned some tips on how to stick to your goals if you want to make them rather than just giving ideas on what one could consider resolving in their life. It kind of bugs me when someone makes suggestions on what others should be working in their lives because, well, it’s none of the other person’s business really and how would they know what that person really truly needs?

I have to stop and then ask myself if that makes me a hypocrite for saying that because I offer suggestions to you guys all the time. Please note that I’m never trying to push idea on you, these are just things I share with you all to shed light onto things you may not have known previously.

Anywho, check out the video if ya want and let me know what you think.

VLOG thumbnail Jan 1 2015Although I believe in making goals anytime of the week or year, not necessarily just on New Years (or September), I will give some of my things that I want to work on or continue to work towards throughout this year. They are the basic idea, so nothing too specific or defined, but they are relevant to my own goals and, provided I am able to make progress towards them, the changes they will bring will benefit my life.

  • Separate some ‘me time’ to blog when I head back into the second semester. I have gotten past the transitional 1st semester, so I’m really hoping to not see another lag in my posts this semester.
  • Continue to build my YouTube channel and making vlogs for this blog
  • SLEEP. This one I have been trying to work at but am still failing at so its back to the drawing board for this one.
  • Continue to balance school with social things and down time so that I don’t end up becoming a hermit. In other words, realize that it’s okay to have some down time to enjoy with friends and not feel bad for not studying 24/7. I did much better with that this year, so I’m happy to continue making progress at it.
  • Deal with online classes better. I have determined that I need to set a ‘class time’ to do my readings for online because I really have a hard time motivating myself to read a textbook from the computer.

 Well that’s all for tonight guys, but to end off I thought I would share something that is well suited for this post.

Happy New Year Funny Graphics 2015

Hope you have had a great start to your 2015 year!

Do you believe in New Years Resolutions? If so, what are some of your goals?

What is the number one reason you think goals are not met or given up on?

What is something you want to do more for yourself that is not related to weight or food?



Thursday Ramblings & December Goals

Hey Friends,

So it’s almost the weekend and I’m feeling rambly…no shocker there as I’m always one to chatter ;-). I had an ‘interesting’ weekend I guess you could say and it got me thinking about things I am wanting to do in the near future. Another thing that has been on my mind lately is my own happiness. I was asked if I was truly happy or just living life comfortably in routine and that is what is keeping my content.

Being content is not really happiness is it…?

I have thought about this a lot and on multiple occasions it has struck me that maybe I am stuck in a bit of a rut. To be honest, most of my days just kind of pass along because with two jobs, you are generally always on the go. This is NOT to say that I don’t like my jobs, I do. More importantly, I love the people that I work with!

  • Foodie talk with Lisa during my close shift at the gym
  • Meathead ramblings with my fellow trainers
  • Meeting some of the nicest customers at GoodnessMe! who take the time to learn and take care of their bodies health
  • Seeing the gratitude from offering your services (recipe ideas, fitness tips, etc)
  • Gathering around a big ol’ table at our GoodnessMe! Xmas party laughing and opening secret Santa gifts

Instead, I have the urge to say that it’s because I don’t have enough ME time. Then again, I don’t think that is it either. When I think about it, I do have ME time. Those spare moments in my days are spent…

  • Gymin in up in the early mornings when others are still snoozin (one of the best parts of my day!)
  • Trying out new recipes
  • Cooking in general
  • Blogging
  • Training clients
  • Sleeping (naps if I get the chance)…this is sad but I’m quite happy if I get a 30min nap a few times a week
  • Time with Andre if he’s home

Maybe I’m just run down. This is entirely possible..well, maybe as a piece of that puzzle, but not all. There are a couple things that I know for a fact are making me feel less than 100%. The big one right now (and it’s my own fault for not finding enough space to get into the clinic!) is these stomach issues. I’m starting to forget what normal feels like and that’s not, well, normal. Another issue that TOTALLY contributes to this run down feeling…and is once again 100% my own fault…is not getting enough sleep. Running on 5 hours every day consistently is not doing me any favours.

  • It will have an effect on my ability to recover from my heavy workouts ( I felt this last week where 2-3 days following my bis and tris workout…yes arms!.. I still felt like I did walking out of the gym following that workout.)
  • It will affect my ability to concentrate, think clearly..even form proper sentences
  • Makes me sluggish
  • Makes everything you do 10x harder and requiring more effort
  • Can’t be helping my body fight these stomach things
  • Makes me moody

So maybe I am comfortable. Now that I’m saying that, I’m really hatin on that word right now. I know that I am one to easily fall into routine and that is not always a good thing. It’s very hard for me to steer away from what I am used to. Maybe it’s laziness. Maybe it’s fear. Or maybe it’s just because it’s my own way of controlling something in my life when other things feel slightly out of my control. As of right now, I don’t know what’s wrong with my digestion (daily stress #1) and that leaves me always thinking about whether it’s worth it to do something out of the ordinary as it could mess it up more. Two, my body is still not letting me put on weight despite my continuous caloric increases and seeing a nutritionist. I have many loved ones who are constantly concerned about my health because of it (stress #2).

These two things mentally exhausting all on their own which I suppose gives me a running start on the stress-o-meter on the daily. Basically what that means is that any additional stress or ‘out of control’ thing will feel much larger than it really should leaving me more run down than I should be.

How sad is that?

So I need to fix some things obviously. I need to help myself as much as I can to keep those icky feelings at bay so that maybe, just maybe, I can stop using the word content and start using the word happy.

So that leaves us with my first few of my December goals

  • Doctors, doctors and more doctors to figure out what the heck is wrong with my digestion. I love the drs. office…not. This is a HUGE one as it is basically running my life right now.
  • Do new things. Step out of my routine. This one will be challenging (spontaneity is not my strong point obviously) but it needs to be done! Christmas back at home will be one of these down.
  • Socialize more! This seems really sad yes, but I have tried to arrange times with my many of friends to meet up in the evenings and NONE of these attempts have panned out. Yes zilch. When this constantly happens I start to get that feeling of loneliness and that needs to change. I know it’s exam time for many but I really think seeing a few beautiful friend faces will turn my frown upside down.

So those are very important but there are also some other goals that I have to address. First, I mentioned that I was thinking about my future as well. I know what I want to do (Dietetics) its now just the time to set my sights on schools, which, is actually fairly easy as there are only 3 in Ontario that offer nutrition based undergraduate programs: Western (Brescia specifically), Guelph and Ryerson. Guelph is very appealing to me but is that only because it’s close to where I live now? Again, fear of change perhaps?. Ryerson on the other hand appears to offer quite an interesting double major

Nutrition and Kinesiology.

Diet and exercise sciences. The best of both worlds! This could be really great for me and is definitely something I should consider if I ever want to work with athletes.

So related goals to this thought stream

  • Apply for OSAP (help my parents out a tad)
  • Fill out transfer credit applications (I should be able to start as a 3rd year undergrad with my BSc. degree rather than a 1st year)
  • Apply!

Another  set of goals are associated with my personal trainer job at the Pulse. These were goals that my director and I discussed and I have to say I have been slacking on them despite their deadline being Christmas and the fact that I actually want to accomplish them.

  • Read and summarize the periodization manual (this could help with my own workouts + clients)
  • Have 3 long term clients (10+ sessions). Hmmm…I don’t think this one will happen. I have one continuous client but no other bites as of yet (exception I may have one for early next year)
  • Learn and be able to teach 3 new exercises. I knew I wanted to learn proper deadlift and hip thrust technique (yes I have been gymin it up for this long and have yet to get deadlifts down..shameful). I’m currently working at Romanian deadlifts with dumbbells as my small hands present a major issue for grippage. I have also asked a fellow workout buff for a demo on hip thrusts but I have yet to touch on the last one as I’m still not 100% sure what I want to learn.

So there are all my goals for this month and into the new year. In general, I hope that in the new year I can break out of my “What’s new with you? Just workin…” rut and actually be workin some fun stuff into my life more. There is one last thing that I have been thinkin about for a while but I’m a lil nervous to do. Again these nerves come from fear BUT this time, it’s fear of the pain…

This is a symbol for Acceptance of Optimal Health. The symbol itself is said to be a Zibu, or Angelic symbol and represents:

Breathe life into your body and envision it as the healthy temple it is intended to be.  See yourself as a thriving being.


The words this symbol express just kinda stuck with me as something I want to work towards. The relationship I have with my own skin has never really been rays of sunshine and despite thriving to live (through diet and fitness) as if my body is my temple, mentally I think I still hate on it too much. I want to love it, love myself, and love what it allows me to do. I want to see it in a positive light. Hopefully, that day will come.

All that being said, I am now very much considering getting inked for the 3rd time. Specifically I have my heart set on the ribs, which is where the nerves come from as that is supposed to be one of the top 3 most tender areas to get tatted up on. Ouch. Someone hold my hand please!

Do you have any tattoos?

Do you have any goals for December? The new year?

What’s one thing you do to show self love?