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Its Crazy How Much Love Can Lift Your Spirit

My Friends…

My amazing and supportive family. Words cannot express my gratitude for all of the kind words of support, love and encouragement that I have received from all outlets following my accident on Saturday.

I will not retell the thing in detail as it is not only traumatizing to me, but also to those who were here at the time, but I will briefly state that in prepping for my GI procedure my little body just didn’t appreciate the prepping and I managed to find myself passed out on my bathroom floor at 4am.

#FacePlant Legit.

1 broken jaw, 5 stitches, a few broken teeth and many hours in Guelph General Emerg later, I was home and ready to stop feeling sorry for myself and try to put this terrifying incident behind me and move forward.

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It is now a fresh week and man have I had my moments of frustration and sadness, while also feeling bad that this has hurt those around me who love me, but honestly all of the support you have all shown me has given me so much life and lifted me up when I truly have needed it.

We all break sometimes and it is in those moments where the village you have created around you on your better days come to your rescue and keep you positive and smiling.

To my bf, I’m sorry. I’m sorry this nightmare happened and you had to come rescue me and keep it together. You have been my knight, my rock and my sunshine.

To my parents, I’m sorry I had to call you in the early hours of the morning and wake you suddenly to tell you I needed you. That I had let this happen. I’m sorry. Thank you for everything that you always do for me and for always being by my side and telling me it will be all okay. No matter how old I get, I need my parents to tell me that sometimes. 

To my friends, my family and even those who may only know me in passing, thank you for your words of encouragement and your love. Every wave, “well wishes” and “you’re gunna get back at it in no time” really does just bring a bit more pep back into my step. 

Choose your family wisely friends. They are your sanctuary and I appreciate mine more than I ever have before after this scary thing.

What things have I learned from this event…

1. Water. Water is great, even feeling like you have to drown yourself in the amount you need to drink in these situations. Next time I will do better.

2.Chewing is honestly something we all take for granted. God I want my rice cakes so bad.

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Would you believe thats tuna mashed in there?

3. Feeling bad for yourself gets you no where. It happened so move on.

4.I will be okay not going to the gym…I keep telling myself this day after day.

5.Sometimes it’s okay to ask for help and not feel you have to be 100% independent ALL of the time.

6.The events that happen to you don’t just happen to you. That trauma finds itself lurking in those around you too. Although it takes effort, take the time to update them and tell them you are doing okay. They need that comfort.

7.Patience. Every day I wake up and the swelling is still here and there is a new travelling bruise on my body I have to just remind myself, healing takes time. Be thankful that your body didn’t fully put up the white flag and show it some consideration and care in how to speak to it.

8.It’s okay to be frustrated. Acknowledge it and than let it go.

I cannot thank you enough my family. I send so much love back to you all!

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Two Down, Three 2 Go

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Hat so big they had to staple it together for me.

My Friends!

Thursday marked the end of my second semester and my second placement of my Master’s of Applied Nutrition (MAN) Program. I handed in my paper and I’m done with it all..

…for 3 weeks

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Lesssss be honest, I would never throw my Mac out the window tho..

I was looking so forward to relaxing over the next 3 weeks. Doing life the way I wanted, whenever I wanted. The only plans I really had (which I was super excited for…) was to be shadowing Andrea (RD at Dietetic Directions) and meeting with my 3rd placement preceptor, but it seems like life doesn’t like simplicity.

Lets see…

~Stats meeting for my thesis Friday + interim report due that night

~Oil change this Tuesday morning, so I have to go home and stay there overnight because it’s at the crack of dawn

~Graduate pictures with my favourite fellow MAN grad, Frannnnaa Bannnannnaa Thursday

~Colonoscopy prep all Friday and Surgery Saturday morning… Maaaammmmeee

~Gastric emptying test at McMaster at 8:30am the following Thursday

~Training my client Karl 3 times plus my other clients (I have two brand new clients adjusting to plans)

~Moving into my summer sublet..with babes ❤

…So, well I like to be busy?

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Aside from my forever busy schedule (okay okay thats half my own doing, I’m in my 20’s reach for the stars right?), I wanted to conclude this placement with a little list of things I learned and gained.

These placements are supposed to be about growth and guide you towards your RD career and I think with each placement thus far I have really strived to push myself to take on opportunities that will benefit me and my future. This semester has been the best so far so I cannot imagine what next semester will bring me.

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I was placed in Hospitality Services for this placement, as it was my time to do food service. I was supposed to be working at adding nutritional information to all recipes on campus using their new software system…

Unfortunately the software was being a bit more finicky and had more ‘bugs’ to work out and my project was than essentially put on hold for the summer interns to take over. As a result, I was able to jump into various positions from cooking in the kitchen, working with the team at SNAP (student nutrition awareness program) and helping upper management with their allergy awareness food line and training modules to help complete my competencies.

I was able to learn a lot and I’m glad that I had the variety because one thing that I really have learned about myself is that I get bored easily and so having more than one task or thing to think about keeps me mentally stimulated the best.

What else did I take away from this placement?

1. A new Food Prep company in the making…

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I met Aaron Crawford (Tourne Cuisine) during my kitchen time and he stated that he was interested in starting up a meal prep service alongside his catering company and asked for me to help with recipe planning and macronutrient counting.

We than moved forward with this idea and we are on our 3rd week of supplying to a customer, who happens to be a trainer at my gym. I hope it can grow from here but I suppose I must be patient as we still haven’t been ‘alive’ for more than a month.

2.  Even those things you aren’t looking forward to may have their purpose.

I will be honest and say that I was NOT looking forward to this placement. Out of the three types of placements we have to do, Food Service was my least favourite. I figured I would be in the back gagging over the hospital food…

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But Ed was great and he allowed me to work fully independently and have lots of tasks to do during my time there. It was a good learning experience and not as bad as I thought.

Still being honest…Could I see myself going into a Food Service job…? No, not really. Clinical and Community are my niches.

3. I loved the ability see my friends every day.

The placement itself did NOT include seeing my friends but I was so centralized on campus that it was rare that I didn’t meet up with one of my friends for lunch. It was so nice to catch up with everyone, including friends I made in the Wellness Centre during my last placement.

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Lesson learned: I need my friends in my life, even when it’s super busy.

4. I hate change but it’s also not so bad and will work it’s way out. 

I get super anxious at the beginning of any new start because my body HATES change to my schedule. Thanks IBS… but it will all be okay once you get into that routine. The gym has always been the biggest and more anxiety provoking change, where I have to switch from my beloved late AM workouts to PM (prime time) but if you love something you will always get it in, no matter where it has to fall.

I also learned how much I needed that stress relief. I was dancing around in the last hour of my day just wanting to go and lift. Brought new insight into my love of lifting.

5. I can fall into work-a-holic tendencies…

I always preach having your down time but I fail at being able to do that myself. With the number of clients I have, my volunteer work, my placement, school and now this prep company, I feel like any second I have I tend to spend working (if I’m not working out). When you are single you don’t tend to notice this, but it becomes more apparent when you find yourself feeling bad about working so much because you want to spend time with your person.

He didn’t need to tell me that I worked too much or that I needed time to myself because I knew it and I wanted to spend more time with him so I knew that I needed to re-proritize and re-balance. It turned out to be something I have to continue to work on but I’m getting better with taking care of myself and having some non-work fun.

The other thing is that I truly love working with my clients. I really really do so it was hard for me to just let that go, even just for a single day. The thing everyone has to learn is that you need time to refuel your tank so that you can help them. It’s also NORMAL and NEEDED to take time for yourself and be ‘selfish’…despite it not being actually selfish. I’m still learning this lesson.

6. Sleep…sleep is important.

Yes I obviously know this, but with everything going on with my health I was literally told by my ND that I needed to actually legit make it a priority. I have been doing my bestest and I have to say that I have done better now probably more than I have in a long time so I’m proud of myself.

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Fun fact, my fav animal is a penguin…and I have a stuffed one on my bed

More lessons to learn as I head on into my summer placements. But for the next few weeks its about taking that time to myself and recovering from those few procedures I have to get done.

Much love my friends! 

Whats one lesson you learned from your University days?


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Dusting off the site…

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Xmas 2018. My favourite animal is right deerrrr. #PenguinsRock #OnesiesAreLife

Well hello there Friends, you still alive over here in my blog world?

 Checking in almost a year later (May 2017 was my last post) and I have to say, I missed blogging. I don’t know how many of you are still hanging in there but I have to say that I’m sorry I basically fell off the face of the Earth. My last post really began a summer full of working and then jumping right into the MAN (Masters of Applied Human Nutrition) program at the University of Guelph and it’s been a whirlwind ever since.

So why am I back you ask so politely? 

I miss you. I miss writing. I often thought about it but I was so busy, I never did. I also felt guilt. Guilt that I couldn’t give you what I used to. The 3-4 posts a week, where 2 of those were informational, researched posts that took me quite a bit of time. You see, my ability to multi task in class and my need for excessive stimulation while being forced to sit in a chair so long in lecture made those possible. Working an 8-hour job after the gym and than my …don’t even want to count my hours now…placement and masters program hours made those posting numbers IMPOSSIBLE or, if possible, it would create anxiety.

I want to write. I love to write. I also need to keep myself safe and free of those negative feelings so this blog needs to go back to its original purpose…

starShare my thoughts with you, personal life, struggles, wins, etc

starGive you science backed information to ponder about and bring into your life

starRecipe and fitness ideas

starAnd just to keep in touch with you. 

I have started quite a new journey this past school year, with its challenges and its gains and I want to share those because some of those things may be able to help others deal with their struggles as well or maybe give some insight.

For the sake of not making this an actual novel (I was notorious for those…) lets just start this back up with an update on my life for the past little bit in a string of images.

Theres a new light in my life. My bf. We have been together since before Xmas and he’s my rock. I have been going through a lot health wise lately (will get to…) and he’s just always there. Thank you for being my Xmas miracle and someone I can show the holiday’s to.

Due to religion (although he doesn’t associate with it now) he has never celebrated our ‘white’ holidays. I’m excited to share them with him. 

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He was in a fraternity during his University years and even as an alumni we get the ability to attend them fancy soirees

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My Mom and I got another tat together last summer. It’s a Swahili symbol for an eternal bond between Mother and Daughter.

That makes 5 for me…

One of my friends from way back at McMaster (Shawna) got married this summer and I took my bestie, Rita, to her first wedding.

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I graduated my nutrition undergrad with distinction, got some scholarships and was accepted into the MAN program to start that September 2017.

Upon meeting my new MAN am, I had never been in a room with so many Type A personalities in my life…We bond over stress. 

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I rocked my Halloween costume in the gym…As expected from me…

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I still remain the smallest bodybuilder I know…but I hit my goal this year already of a 2x body weight back squat despite my health issues… That’s flipps off to those little buggers…

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I’m still helping with my clients and they are doing awesome. I normally don’t advertise but I had to with Carly. She has done amazing…

….That was just before Xmas break and my clients doubled after this post. 

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Dori finally got her plates she deserved. Now everyone knows my car in the gym parking lot

Yes I still bake and cook for everyone in my house… well, those who let me…

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Only scientifically backed supplements currently…shhh this isn’t published yet…

I attended my first ever educational conference in January..after a storm and freezing temperature warning in the city…which I loved. It was the Sports Nutrition Conference. So many cool things to learn.

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Placements have been interesting. I have gotten to do conferences (Power of being a girl, first placement), bring the Body Project to campus (ED prevention intervention, first placement), work as a prep chef (second placement) and meet lots of interesting people…

#NetworkingGains

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Including Chef Aaron who I’m currently working with to see if we can get a meal prep company off the ground. Early phases friends. We sold our first test batch only 1 week ago with a re-order this week. Crossing our fingers for more to come. Its with Tourne catering (Aaron’s Company)

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Managed to get into contact with Andrea, from Dietetic Directions (her own private practice) and discuss future opportunities at my dream job. I will be doing a FOURTH placement with her this summer before I graduate and moving forward from there.

I almost felt like I was embarrassing myself during our chat because I was so thankful to speak with her and for her to give me feedback on my potential as a future dietitian. 

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My family is happy and good and I miss them. Times together are fewer and farther between because of my schedule but I hope to change that with the end of my 2nd placement and a few weeks off before I begin again.

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I still always miss this fuzzy face…

So this year had been quite a busy one. One filled with coming into my own true self and my passions are coming alive. People come to me and ask for help. I’m starting to be seen as professional in my field, someone people can trust for answers related to their health.

It feels really really good. 

What hasn’t felt good is related to my health struggles over the past few years. I won’t go into detail here because it’s a post in itself but I will leave you with these results from my GI MAP that my friend (ND) helped me get…

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Follow the slide show and I know many of you won’t understand it but I must say this is an amazing test for EVERYONE (not just people with stomach issues). Its not cheap but it’s worth it. I will explain more later but after my stomach issues reaching an all time low (body flushing everything out of my system daily) I needed to get something done because the doctors were useLESS..pardon my harshness…and I was getting to the point where grey was my new normal colour and my electrolytes and blood pressure were clearly problematic

Test came back with:

Same parasite as before (thanks for the help prescriptions)

High levels of inflammation (body is attacking itself to deal with toxins from parasite, specifically in the gut/intestines)

Leaky gut syndrome (zonulin levels show that)

Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth (SIBO), with some other parasitic pathogens in my system

High calprotectin, which is grounds for testing for IBD (irritable bowel disorder, which includes Crohns…). My friend and coach are thinking it’s just inflammation but I can’t help but be scared about that one. 

So I’m working with my friend, Andrew, alongside my coach, who will take a natural approach to fixing all of these issues. I have never taken so many supplements in my life but I need to get this fixed as it’s come to a point were I’m looking ill again and it’s interfering with my life. A dietitian should NOT look sick (although this is not in my control) but I’m moving forward friends.

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I want to post about my health NOT for sympathy or to make me seem incompetent of getting my schooling and work done but to provide a story that hopefully can help anyone else who may encounter this issue. Parasites are actually more common than you think (no they are not contagious!) but they wreck havoc on your system and leave lasting damage.

…but things are going to be A-Okay fam!

With that I will close here. Nice to be back Friends, chatter more soon.

Much love 

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Emotionally Numb..TOL

Are you one of those people who knows something big is happening soon but don’t really feel it until the day of?

When that day comes, its like a bomb exploded instead of being a slow burning flame that will quietly simmer and then just fizzle out.

Sound dramatic?

As my undergrad comes to a close (2nd one, yay for year 7 of post-highschool schooling…) I have been pondering a lot of things lately, yet I feel almost unattached to the emotions I feel they should be associated with.

…maybe that is my first problem…overthinking..

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I’m leaving my housemates. I know I’m going to cry the day of, I know it. I love these two girls and for now I just think that them leaving hasn’t hit me yet. I swear I have feelings..

I’m moving in with new housemates. I have met one of them and she’s so sweet and just like me in the sense that she appears to me like an ‘older soul’ and one who gets stuff done and is a respective and responsible person.

I have to go back home and work inside all summer long. I think this is the one that I have been the most vocal about. My job last summer was a dream. I spend my days outside, I did my research at night and I was the most relaxed I had ever been I felt. this was a true blessing because I was sick (Read: infested without knowing it) at the time and although I was struggling with it, I don’t know how bad it would have gotten if I hadn’t have been so free and care-free.

I’m having to leave my second family (my gym fam) for the whole summer because I have to go home. This may seem silly to many of you, but I feel a certain ‘place’ there. I’m known and I just feel at home there. My friends are there. Friends who share my interests and can gab for days about all the things I love. My people live and breathe there just like me. It may only be for 4 months, but its just another thing I’m leaving…

My Masters is apparently going to be a crazy time. From placements to my masters, I have so much to do in a whole 3 semesters and I weirdly feel calm. I’m excited for my placements but I know that so much change is about to occur and at this point and ‘calmness’ I don’t know how the initial days are going to fare with such a change to my normal scheduling.

….After my Masters, life hits you like a bag of bricks….

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Should I think about where I want to live as an adult?

How am I going to afford a place to live when I’m done. I’m not going back home right? I can’t, I just can’t. But a place…On my own…Am I ready for that? Can I even think about affording that?

I don’t even know how to do my own taxes for gods sake!

And all I have to say for myself at the moment is I feel nothing. I’m not sad. I’m not worried and I’m not (consciously at least) anxious about it.

That in itself makes me worried because when it all hits me, I don’t know how I’m going to react. That is a lot of change. And I, mentally and physically (heres pointing at your stomach of hell), don’t do well with change.

How do I prepare if I feel nothing?

Am I somehow able to suppress all feelings because I’m overwhelmed with all the change that is imminent? 

I dunno.

I guess for now I need to just continue to focus on my exams and when two weeks from now comes up and I’m hugging my housemates and saying goodbye, I will just have to accept what happens is what I need to have happen. There is no planning that can be done, just let the feels be feels.

On a side note, I really want a dog. Like I’m not kidding guys, I really want one. Enough so that stuffed animals have become appealing to me in large ways.

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That nose freckle is shining bright..

I have this emptiness (which I think is a want for a romantic relationship…) that I need to fill with something and as much as I love my new Chester, this void is still burning deeper, but I suppose that is not in my control either. There is a time and a place for being single, growing and self-loving. I have done that. Why is it that when you are finally feeling confident in yourself and what you deserve AND you are ready and wanting to give yourself and your love to someone else that there is nothing to be found?

Le sigh. I digress…

Guess it also doesn’t help my mood that my stomach is being a terror with my exams…despite said feelings of nothingness. What else is new. Are you almost healed yet…?

To conclude I just want to say that no I’m not sad or anything like that, I’m a very happy person, these are just some thoughts rolling through my forever active mind and I think I’m simply suppressing feelings at the moment. Please don’t think I’m depressed or anything as that is far from true. 

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How do you respond to major life changes?

Do you feel ready to take on the world after your education?

Thanks to Amanda and her link-up party for my thoughts to dance in.

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-Chelsea


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When Mama Has No Birdies Left…

T-Minus 12ish hours there will be one less Monkateer left in my house.

No more lil birdies for me to watch.

To train.

To laugh with.

…And I may or may not have some puffy eyes to hide tomorrow…

The last bestie standing is going back home for the rest of the summer and, yes I just made that overly dramatic but I’m really gunna miss my Rita.

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Selfishly I want her to stay, but I also want her to go back home to see her parents. She hasn’t been back to China in a year and so I’m so happy that she has the chance to visit with her family for a lil while before school starts up again.

I feel as if this summer has really been a blessing though. I decided to stay mostly for her because my job really doesn’t force me to stay in Guelph at all and I don’t regret that decision what-so-ever. As close as we were already, I feel as though this summer has really allowed for us to bond in a new way.

You could really say we were attached at the hip most days and so it’s going to be very strange to be on my own for this last month.

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We said we were gunna explore Guelph more this summer and thanks to the beautiful weather, we have!

She showed me the arboretum for the first time and I got to be her photo subject.

We went back and forth via bus to whole foods and lululemon as I now have her addicted to all things expensive apparently.

We gymed together.

We had nightly walks that consisted of those deep feeling talks…ya know, girl things.

We finally went canoeing!

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I got to train her and I got this STRONG lady doing both squats and deadlifts PLUS facing her fear of bench pressing.

I’m also just proud of her in general. This year was a big changing year for her throughout the school year in her own personal growth and confidence. She pushed so hard and got amazing grades this year, which is made even more impressive because obviously we work in english here and she’s only been in Canada for 3-4 years now. She had her first interview and got a great volunteer position in her field. This process was huge because she is always nervous about writing and speaking due to the english component but she’s doing more amazing then she will ever see in herself.

But I see it…

Although I’m only 3 years older then her, I feel this need to guide her like a ‘mama’ would (guess that’s why both my housemates nicknamed me as such) so she reaches for new opportunities that she may feel she can’t do. I may go overboard once and a while and maybe push too hard (and I’m sure she wants to run away at that point), but I do it because I care.

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This post really is sounding like I’m sending my child off to school or something, but I’m just letting my thoughts roll. She’s one of my best friends and I love seeing her gain more and more confidence in herself because she deserves to feel as awesome as she truly is.

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When trapped on a 1-hour bus ride, you take creepy pictures to keep yourself amused. Rita is smarter and brings something to read…

Now as I see the time ticking away, I think it will finally hit me soon enough that she will be gone as of 6am tomorrow morning and then I may just ball my eyes out whimper a lil bit.

I hope you’re so excited to be home and get to do everything and see everyone you haven’t done and seen for the past year.

Mama loves ya

-Chelsea


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25 Years In The Making…

Happy Long Weekend my friends!

First off, a big Happy Birthday shoutout to one of my besties and my beautiful housemate, Ritaaaaaa! I hope you enjoyed your day as low key as it was. We are two in the same where birthdays don’t really phase us, BUT I hope my singing over a pile of pancakes with a candle helped to start your special day on an interesting note.

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Can we accept that I win for creativity with that card eh? Oh and we do birthday pancakes in this house! Chef Chelsea to the birthday rescue.

Click on the picture to take you to my Facebook page if you want to see us singing together.. 😀

It was quite magical… cough. 

Well speaking of birthday’s it is mine today and I am always thankful for all of the love that I receive on this day. I don’t need anything but to hear all of the people in my life take a moment of their time to send me a message just makes me smile. I always feel that a “like” isn’t enough. If they thought about me in that moment, I like to write them back a message because they deserve that for the warmth and positive energy they just passed to me.

So much love is given around and my heart always feels so full.

Starting with calling my Nana and Papa first thing because they always want to talk to me on my birthday if they cannot see me in person. So I called them up (as they don’t know my celly) and was happy to hear their cheerful voices in the wee hours in the morning.

The Facebook messages started a’rollin early as well including two beautifully written posts by my parents. Both of them included the topic of pride and I cannot help but feel some kinda way when they say they are proud of who I have become because that’s all I can hope for.

I want to make them both proud! You have raised me to be who I am and I can only hope that you know how much I care and appreciate all that you have done.

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As I was preparing to head out for an early lifting sesh (obviously going to lift on my birthday!)

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Rita came out of her room nice and early to sing to me and hand me this…

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She is the sweetest! And inside da bag…

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I love them and obviously had to put them on immediately.

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Sorry for the filter I was trying to ensure you could see the sparklies!

Going to be flying in the gym! And sparkles, oh she knows me too well.

After a very colourful chestday…

Yes I will wear as much obnoxious colour as I want especially cuz it’s my birfday and I do what I wanna 😉

The gym staff even started singing happy birthday to me across the room. Yes my gym apparently loves me too, guess it’s all the treats I bring them hehe.

Made my morning!

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My housemates picked me up (remember Emily drove down from Montreal?) and we jetted out to find a nice cozy spot on the patio at Buon Gusto, a cute Italian place downtown Guelph. Rita has wanted to try this place and I just wanted a patio setting so the two birthday girls got exactly what they wanted.

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We missed Em so much and were happy to be able to steal her away from her BF (Alex) for a few hours to celebrate our lil reunion.

We had to say goodbyes and it was super sad and felt almost like something was missing. We didn’t get enough time and felt like we left not getting everything that we wanted to.

Her and Alex drove away and Rita and I decided to go for a walk…a walk that turned into an hour and a half and by the time we got home, we were beyond tired. The sun is beautiful but man does it drain the life out of you.

My shoulders are nice and brown though!

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To our surprise, two minutes later, I kid you not, Em knocks at the door and said she just couldn’t fully leave without stopping by. So we chattered just the three of us girls and then she was on her merry way back to Montreal. We needed that. It wouldn’t have felt right if the first goodbye was the only goodbye.

Us girls need girl talk ya know?

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We then went about making dinner and then I started making noodleless lasagna for Rita as I had extra chicken sausages to use up from yesterday.

Yes I’m still cooking all the things on my birthday…

And now as I sit here and think about how I feel at the end of my birthday, I can’t say I feel much different. Age really doesn’t mean much to me but what I will say is that I have come a long way in my first 25 years of life. I can also say that I’m proud of many of the things that I have done for myself, with some of the biggest changes being within the past few years.

I say it a lot, but my confidence that I exude now amazes me sometimes. I am the girl who used to stand in front of the class and pretty much want to cry during a presentation because I was so nervous. I was so insecure that I would be constantly thinking that others were judging me for the worst. I looked to please everyone around me even if that meant that my kindness was taken advantage of.

I didn’t love myself. That was simply self destruction.

Today I stand tall (ha right, not physically..) because I feel like a completely different person.

I couldn’t give a **it what others think about me 99% of the time. If I’m doing what is right for me, why should I feel like I’m doing something wrong?

I do things for me and don’t see them as selfish anymore. This is important! You have to come to realize that you are a person that needs attention to. It’s not bad to take care of yourself. 

I have a lot to give but I will never be taken advantage of. I refuse to be walked all over. That doesn’t mean I’m a mean person as I have quite of love that I want to give. Instead it means that I respect myself. 

I have goals I’m striving for. I’m determined and I will hit them.

I have a great social circle that makes me smile every day. No longer to I spend all my time on my work and believe that this feeling of slight loneliness is okay. I give off so much energy when I’m with others. 

If there is something I want, I go get it.

One thing, though, that I have always known is that I believe that I was meant to help others. I was meant to give. I know that may sound corny or others say that all the time, but I truly believe that is my calling.

I will leave it at that.

So there was my weekend in snapshots and it was full of love. Birthday’s are never about the things, its about the who’s and every person who takes a second out of their day to send positivity and love your way.

Thank you for all of that love. It is appreciated much more then you can know.

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-Chelsea


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From Confidence To Word Vomit..

Hey Friends!

Hope you had a great Saturday. Mine was jam packed but all fun times. As I mentioned yesterday, today was the GNC Pro SuperShow in Toronto so my lovely Dad came down to pick me up from Guelph and drop me off at the Convention Centre for me to run around my lil playground.

Now before you call me a spoiled brat, note that I was totally willing to Greyhound it down there but my Dad doesn’t like me taking the bus alone. Lolz, Daddy’s lil girl. I was so thankful for him doing this though and he just wandered into the Eaton Centre and did what he does best…Shopped. 

First though, of course, a lift had to happen so a sleepy me (haven’t been sleeping the best lately, heat? allergies? Dunno) headed to hit shoulders (my fav!) and then head off to the Expo.

I was seeing a bunch of my friends from back at McMaster so of course I had to bring a lil something something..

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Flourless peanut butter banana muffins a la Averie Cooks with a few Chelsea tweaks. 

I was notorious for my baked goodies at the gym so obviously I had to show them that I still baked. Showing my love.

They loved them btw, great job Averie! 

So yeah, when you first walk in its all fake tanner, bikinis and buff guys wandering around and it’s so busy that it can get slightly overwhelming.

Us shorties are always in danger of being trampled. Legit. 

I managed to make my way through to find Andrew and he happened to be with someone I often saw shop at GoodnessMe! back in Hamilton. Small world eh? Anyways Pierre and Andrew have actually teamed up to create their own business which is totally cool.

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They had been waiting like an hour in line to meet Sadik, or 2nd runner up Mr. Olympia, and my lil tushie then snuck right in with them to also have some small talk and take some snaps.

Timing on point.

Sadik is quite a real guy. So not what you expect from someone so huge in the bodybuilding world. Great guy and very inspirational.

After that, and after a few calls, bad directions and getting lost, I finally found Daniel, who was a fellow personal trainer at Mac.

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And we proceeded to also get a lil snaphappy at the bodybuilding.com Photo Booth. Do you even flex?

Dan is such a sweetheart and so it was super nice to catch up and see what he was up to.

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I then found myself wandering away and finding myself in line for Miss Buff Bunny..

I waited a whole 40ish minutes (and that was at the end of the day!) to finally arrive up to her and that’s where my confident self basically turned into a rambling fangirl….

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So embarrassing.

You know how you don’t really think of something as a big deal and you know what you’re gunna say but then you open your mouth and…

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Ugh.

I wanted to tell her why she was an inspiration to me and now it’s all a blur of pointless **it in and amongst a few “you’re my inspiration” type stuff.

But hey, she thought I was cute and she said my quads were poppin so it could have been worse right…

Right….?

Anyways, she inspires me in several ways and it would be nice if she could read this more scripted version instead of the garbles I said to her earlier.

~She’s tiny, like myself, but EATS! She eats to grow and she shows that she actually eats quite a bit. It’s none of this chicken and rice crap that I see so many female YouTubers sporting even when they aren’t on prep. This really helps me mentally because I have this weird irrational sense that I’m doing something wrong when I’m over here eating more then people larger then me. I have mentioned this before but this is why comparison is a total mind ef.

She’s five inches taller then me, lifts and eats 400 cals less then me. WTH?

Case in point, DONT COMPARE TO ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU!

I need to take this point to heart. Heidi even said this. Take it as a positive that you can eat so much. You body is telling you that you need it, not just to grow but even just to maintain. Fuel that rabbit metabolism girl!

~She lifts heavy. I have mentioned this before, but this is actually motivating always because there still aren’t that many girls, let alone, ones sitting nicely at 5 feet tall, that actually lift to grow. You know how proud I was when I hit that 135 back squat? Pumped!

Lastly, she’s real. She’s down to earth and actually the sweetest person ever. She was like:

Oh you’re such a cutie. I love how tiny you are.

Plus she dealt with my blabbering self with a smile.

Heidi, you are the real MVP!

So yeah, today was fun, but despite my lovely car nap, I’m drained so I will cut this off here so I can go stuff my face one last time for the day and hit the pillow.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend friends!

-Chelsea