My Friends, My Friends!
Oh how I have missed you all! I hope you are all still with me, but as I took a mini hiatus over the last month of the summer, I can understand if you gave up on me…
I feel the need to say sorry for taking my lil break from the blog world, but I was just spending the time with my friends and family, while also working and getting my house prepped (ugh moving sucks eh?) before I moved in during the second weekend of September.
I actually think I really needed the time to just be at home, not be working 24/7 (I worked a few full shifts a week at an old job as a chef. Thanks again to Mark for squeezing my lil tushie into your kitchen once again) and reflecting a bit on myself and my health.
For this first post back on this lovely Tuesday, I thought I would give a brief lil recap and some thoughts of this summa in general.
Overall, as I mentioned, I think I really needed this summer to be home. I really enjoyed being able to spend the time at home with my parents and Maggie..
I loved being able to watch her do her favourite things like dunking herself in a grocery bucket filled with water in the backyard when it got too hot and bobbin for her toys like they were apples.
I loved being able to take her for walks and see how distracted this young, ‘forever puppy’ can get. Chasing leaves if they moved. Trying to eat butterflies. She’s quite a child and very different from my previous poodle, Lacey.
She’s a great mix between diva and tomboy.
I got to spend more time seeing my friends and keeping updated with their lives the way I haven’t been able to do when I was working full time previous summers.
I still baked. Whether it was the end of the summer peach pie baking with my Mom (with the last of the farmer’s market in season peaches!)…
Or baking for the trainers at Goodlife..
High protein goodies anyone?
They were very much enjoyed…and fought over apparently…
My Ice Cream A Week challenge continued all through the summer and I have to say that I’m quite proud I continued to keep it up despite still having that guilt.
Out of all of my times I went, I managed to find my favourite ice cream place…
Best Salted Caramel ice cream I had all summer! All ice creams, sorbets, gelato’s and sorbets made in house! Yes they had everything your heart could desire.
I will say that I became quite the ice cream snob and despite my Baskin Robbins being good and serving it’s purpose, homemade really began to strike my fancy.
Also tried the local Ontario goodness as well and that was damn good too.
My Mom and I finally got to go to Ripley’s Aquarium in Toronto!
It was so cool! Despite being run over by a bazillion strollers (who takes a baby to an aquarium…like they will remember anything..) it was a great time.
Oh and don’t be like me and buy Timmies right before you walk into the place as they make you throw it out 😦
I loved being able to soak up as much of that beautiful weather we got this summer as possible..
Sunshine is my favourite. It’s where I’m meant to be.
I got to meet Nicole Wilkins at the Toronto Pro Show sponsored by GNC in Toronto!
I wrote a whole post about this event but she is such a sweetheart in person and so inspirational to say the least.
I thoroughly enjoyed eating as much lobster as my lil heart desired as not only did we have LobsterFest at work (work perks..), but I also found frozen cooked lobster at my parents local grocery store…
Now all of this was fine and dandy but there have been some reflections as well. Specifically with my health, both physically and mentally. Let me explain:
- I have still been unsuccessful at putting on the weight I lost due to food poisoning and my colonoscopy despite trying to increase my food.
- I have become aware that I really need to push myself to eat more despite really fearing being full if I want to push forward.
- I truly know I need to gain and I DO see myself as I truly am. When I was sick at 16 I didn’t see myself as the thin, emaciated person I was but at the weight I am now my mind is still rational enough that I do see the thinness and I don’t like what I see. Too thin and I want to grow.
- I know I say and do two different things at the moment and I’m not proud of it. I want so badly to just eat more to grow but that fear sometimes makes it easier to just stay as I am. I need to pool my strength to overcome that and just dive in head first and let go.
- OCD tendencies are showing up and they are an additional hurdle I have to face now. These are strange things that I haven’t faced before but it’s obvious that they are a result of not feeling in control of something in my life (ie. my weight and health). I have determined that it’s time to reach out for help and I’m currently waiting to see a psychiatrist to see if they can help me knock out some of these fears and OCD things that have shown up over the summer.
- As for my GI issues, the colonoscopy came back clean but because I had a positive test result for another part I was tested on, he wants to take an MRI of my small bowel to make sure there aren’t any disorders causing inflammation. Oh the journey of zee stomach continues. At least it’s not as bad as when I started out due to me taking some steps to change my diet slightly.
Okay now that all that heavy stuff is out in the open (just keeping things real with you all, I still have my struggles)…
What am I doing now that I’m back in Guelph?
I’m doing what I do best…
Farmer’s marketing with my housies..
…and eating delicious creations from said rendezvous…
Classin it up with a pretty decent looking schedule if I do say so myself. Hello third year.
Making Oats In A Jar for my housies…
And even doing some more writing of the article variety…
I got the exciting and very fortunate opportunity to help out the dietician (and I will call her a friend as well!) I was working with, who happen to work at the Guelph University Clinic, as a volunteer writing next months nutrition article for the newsletter and I’m quite pumped to see it go live online. I am starting as a volunteer with the HPC just this fall with a few small jobs here and there (as I’m not full time) but I’m looking forward to it.
Big Shout Out to Gabrielle 😀
And a final “Doin Me” thing is that I’m actively trying to work on myself. Not only physically but mentally. To keep these challenges up. To keep trying to talk back negativity and OCD thoughts because if I don’t try to push through them, then they will overtake me and that is not a good time thats for sure. Sometimes it’s really tiring to fight, but I always have to keep in mind that if I let up just a bit it will be that much harder to come back and, to be completely honest, I’m annoyed that its been a bit of a struggle and that these thoughts are here but recovery is no picnic and this is a solid reminder that I need to always keep my guard up.
So heres to a happy, fulfilling and FUN new year and I hope you are all ready for it.